Sunday, April 30, 2006Y
hmm back frm another day.. morning went to grandma place... my cousin is SO NICE ! he go taiwan buy me the e small mini sort of instrument lyk recorder liddat DAMN CUTE ! lols.. my cousin is so nice ! (:
went to the hospital again.. she looks the same.. i will still pray for her... she still din rmb me... haix.. nvm.. i hope she can discharge n return home asap can le...
dhen went about the same boring sunday routine..
the good thing is....
I FINISHED STUDYING FOR MY HISTORY ! LOLX !
i memorised evrything le ! Whheee !
lols now i m currently slacking hahas...
tml last day of slacking le... k larhs must make full use to slack now... so i shant say much...
shall go off.. buhhbyes ! blog nxt tym asap LOLX.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
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came back frm hospital.. SGH... i detest hospitals now..
went to visit my grandma... she just finsihed op.. in great pain.. i cant imagine it... she is so slpy.. just slps and slps... she is really in pain.. but at the same tym i admire her courage... her courage to just continue to live on.. her will power... no matter how pain it is... even if heaven says no itx tym for her.. she fights till the end... she has alot she wants 2 accomplish in life... she is a really strong person..
i hate this.. i m feeling so guilty.. just cos i stayed at home to study and for tuition.. din go visit her.. n now.. when i c her.. my heart is lyk so painful...
worst thing is.. she forgotten who i m... i used 2 walk over to her house and she will call.. yin yin ! and now.... deres no more... no more... she has erased me from her memory... it cant be hlped i din go visit her.. now i m an empty person to her...
Grandma, i will pray for you evryday u r already strong enough to pull thru till now.. carry on.. dun gif up... although i m no longer in existence in ur memory... i will always be praying for you... you must be strong... i noe u r in great pain but dere r still many ppl 2 support you... dun just leave... we r all very hopeful.. u will be discharged soon...hope u can hear me... be strong...tml will go c her again... hope she will be better...-dun gif up hope...-
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Friday, April 28, 2006Y
paper 2 for eng n paper 1 for chi is OVER. haix got 2 more weeks of exams.. so siann.. but i aint studying.. i m NOT my guai self today i m just tired... very... nvm.. isnt dat whad life is supposed 2 be? tiring?
Innocence is like a bubble we are in, once pricked by the needle of truth,It's lost, gone, varnished.There is no turning back.Out we go into the real world.Cruel facts. Reality. The harsh world.We no longer feel safe. We can never feel safe. Not ever again.Maybe only when it all comes to an end.
true? lols well i dun care larhhs.. my exams r so freaking near and now i MAKE the decision of NOT studying..
shall slack.. n shall not slp early.. i dun gif a dam anymore.. flunk dhen flunk lorhs wan scold me wan hit me dhen hit lorhs... i dunnid 2 care anymore.. dun wanna care oso...
must admit today is nice... wif cheryl albert n yi xin LOLX ! cheryl kissed albert ! lols ! i kissed cheryl ! n yi xin kissed me !
kk i gtg le buhhbyes
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Wednesday, April 26, 2006Y
hihix i m back.. MYE is lyk in 3 days tym n i m slacking? WOW ! lols..
i gort maths 2 do finished paper 1 n decided 2 do paper 2 tml.. hmm n i got loads of revision? i haven really started much.. and i guess i will die for MYE no doubt abt that and ermx.. today yang meh meh is abit siao.. make us do YYW and compo sia ! one say tml do dhen she rmb tml no chi... kao larh ! lols she's a BIG bloody fat ass sucker.. (X ytd say wan gif me detention cos of a few wrds din do correction fck larh ! me n albert wanted 2 take penknife go scratch her car ! whee ! lols.
she anyhow arrange the sitting arrangement and i end up sitting wif albert n poor yi xin sits wif zhong tao.. WHY ALBERT ! of evryone WHY ALBERT ! yi xin more ke lian.. is lyk she buy sushi for herself put under table dhen zhong tao e hand just go under the table take and eat it dhen dhye pass down e row. by the tym at zhi sheng he take last piece no more le.. UNFAIR LOR ! bully yi xin.. my baby dear dear love rival dar dar.. n hor me n yi xin separate frm LAO GONGG LE ! omfg larhs.. lao gonggg wo hao xiang ni aRhx... cheryl u must miss us kkies.. (X
i so bad leh slack slack slack.. kkies i go back do hwk n SHUT DOWN e com le...
dun think i will revise.. lols..
-3 days to MYE--2fg'o6 ! pia kkies !-
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Thursday, April 20, 2006Y
hihiX... feel so siann.. tml gortt mo4 xie3 n i din bring back my chi txtbk n tml must hand up maths and i din back maths txtbk... how pro can i actually get...
came back frm decoing e band rm.. itt totally looks lyk a nice CHILDCARE CENTRE... trust me itx disgusting... lols... came back damn early but decided 2 REWARD myself wif tym online for a day cos i had been chionging for sometym le bahx... today when me meow n henry left.. sindy n sheldon left in e band rm LOLX. so farnie.. dunno whad dey "do" worx.. lols...
i dunno why suddenly feel so sad.. as if i m really such a failure in my life... i din do dat well as expected for my studies n now i din even bring back my bks.. michelle was talking 2 me.. dhen itx lyk.. i dunno whad happen oso larhs.. i started talking abt myself wanting 2 study n so on... i really dunno... DUNNO ! whad on earth is wrong wif me... why e hell is dere such a sudden weird mix of feelings... me coming online n feel lyk i shulden... feel lyk i shulden come online but instead go back n study...
forget it.. i cant stand e feeling... feel so weird.. nvr had it b4... dunno whad shuld i do...
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Monday, April 17, 2006Y
heyheyx ! back again ! lols damn soon worrx... now havin it lesson... (: teacher takin shho freaking long tuu set up e computer? so we can slack.. cool man ! lols..
Firx things firx.. yesterday was dda competition n we just mananged 2 clinch a
SILVER.. i sortta expected it to happen. itx either a bronze or silver but in e waiting rm.. trumpet section was rather hopeful though.. we thought we could really clinch a gold.. i din think it was possible.. i just had to be hopeful i guess.. but well it turned out the same.. whad happened is just fate bahx.. is it really dat we overestimated ourseleves? i guess itx more for motivation...
i noe most of us slogged hard from the beginning.. i din really practise much but i improved abit.. i m feeling damn guilty now for whad happened.. had i practised more this wun have happened.. with wen rong trying tuu get e whole section to practised i realised dhat in the whole band e people i really wanna say sorry to the most are, my SL ( i m really very sorry) and to e sec4s.. this was their last competition here and we actually din leave a happy event for them to remember before they left... A BIG gigantic sorry to u all ! e whole band...
But nevertheless.. whads over is over.. nth can be done toc hange it.. deres no point crying over spilt milk.. just have to wrk really really damn hard for the nxt competition coming up.. we must do dda sec 4s proud.. show dhem.. their efforts on dda band is nort wasted.. not one bit ! We will oso get not just GOLD wif HONOURS as well ! sec 4s u arll oso mushh come back n visit us after pop kkies we need u arll 2 guide us still (: Theresa dun cry lerx kkies (:
well,we will definitely wrk harder ! yays ! Chung Cheng High Main Band Jiayous ! (:
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Thursday, April 13, 2006Y
i promised casey i'd dedicate a post 2 her man.. n itx lyk LONG LONG ago.. lolx. ah well nvm.. hmm... long tym din blog cos recently so damn bz cos of band... almost evryday osho gort.. until very late osho..
many things happened so in that period of tym between now and the last blog i made i shall not talk abt it..
i just came back from band n felt so sian so decided 2 blog.. (X todays combine rather farnie.. meh meh was playing "transvestite training school" wif yongsheng AGAIN n itx lyk freaking farnie.. dhen we had this topic abt entering wrong toilets all becos of yanbing going into the guys toilet n saw yong sheng urinating.. dunno whad she saw larhs.. think she oready nose bleed liaox lols ! sheldon was bz taking fotos of ppl and wr looked so farnie can.. hahas ! yong sheng oso poke me and hui qi's face wif e pencil larhs.. and he oso kip hitting hui qi? poor thing.. and the most sickening thing from last tym de combine in cca block outside happened in the LT again.. HENRY hor... kip blocking me LOLX. dhen my neck is lyk half crooked cos i cant c mr wong.. dhen hor i dunno wth is wrong wif me.. kip playing either one note lower or higher dhen stuff CLASH dhen out of tune.. haix.. sorry trumpet section..
Then i went lunch wif casey.. went out on e way started 2 rain but we still walking SO SLOWLY.. saw chloe n grace chin on e way... so went n eat wif dhem... grace was eating rather slowly but she is damn cute ! lols.. lyk small girl liddat.. chloe was saying she is childish.. n i said child-like. lols.. dhen hor.. she make chee seng get sweets frm her even when she's sick dhen chloe was bz objecting LOLX. me n casey were lyk laughing? dhen e way grace was talking 2 chee seng make me choke on e sea weed. n dhen dhey were lyk u ok anot.. relax relax. damn farnie can ! lols. dhen when walking back we became HIGH VOLTAGE lightbulbs LOLX.. dhey were lyk walking n casey even saw dhen hold hands dhen when look dhey faster separate haiyo ! i m so bad de timing so lan4 de ! lols.. ahh well dats a farnie thing.. n i finally knew whad was truly ROU4 MA2 if i put that kind of things into rosa.. i will die b4 i even finish playing it.. LOLX.
oh ya.. i walked out wif casey xiao lin michelle gina today cos meow got com meeting.. it seems rather long so i din wait dhen casey n michelle wanted 2 eat roti prata outside da sch dhen.. dhey saw meow at e bus stop.. dhen michelle started pushing me across e road as hard as she can.. if dere was car i will not c e sunrise any more man.. al of dhem pushing me 2 go 2 e bus stop lorhs all shho badd derx.. lols nvm. today overall shuld be ok (X except tired only haha !
competition so near liaox n e blazer still so big.. songs oso not even well played yet.. so sian de lorhs... my concentration lvl damn lan4 then got newzealand band coming on sat wonder how we gonna play WELL in fornt of dhem.. haix.. nvm i m currently thinking of whad 2 buy for dhem.. i oso gotta remind myself bring back instru WASH ! lols keep forgetting !
we din go for sports day leh.. n hor i heard dat.. chung cheng lost in all stuff except one Bgirls de item.. all kena trashed by dunman.. ahh well nvm cos must have SPORTSMANSHIP.. we r not sorelosers mahx LOLX.
kkies enough le bahx i go off le.. blog NXT TYM(which is dunno when lolx)
buhhbyes.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
