hello blog! :DD

Today was a real sad day, indescribable.
I dont know what has happened and I just wished i was kept in the dark.
The pain was unbearable, surging through my heart like an arrow.
How? I really stood and thought, here and there.
I did not understand why someone, could do such a magnificient feat in just 3 weeks?
I thought that it was already alright but now my hopes were all shattered, all lost like a piece of glass that have already smashed on the floor.
My trust misplaced, my hopes smashed, my smiles vanished, my mind whirling.
I'm in a big fix now, humans are real scary.
"Change is the only thing that is constant."
Isn't that really true?
People say I may be overly disturbed or even think that I have feelings for him.
I'm telling you I do not.
I do not bother about what everyone says.
I just feel that it is just a loss i do not want to make.
What made you change?
Where is the old you?
My feelings are just so mixed and undescribable.
You're bothering my mind by doing all these actions that I find incorrigibly stupid.
I am just telling you,
don't put on an act anymore.
Seriously so what if you are good, are we supposed to serve you?
Just because you don't care, don't despise us because we are not as good as you.
I hate people like that.
I detest people like that.
It just makes my blood boil thinking about how immature your thinking is.
Being too mature and thinking that you are mature makes you look like a fool and not some person that is so high and mighty.
Lastly, please drop that facade of yours.
I hate it when you pretend and please don't try to lie to me.
You're just making me more disgusted and I am just completely put off by your hypocritical attitude this way.
Congratulations, you have got the honour of ruining my day just about everyday.
I'm hoping you would change for the better, just hoping.
If you don't just attempt to reach out to yourself and help yourself.
Believe me, no one else can my friend.

What needs to be said is said.
Just keep the flame of Hope burning.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

evryth's depressing my mood.
atmospheric pressure seems to be sinking down and pressing me HARD on the earth.

i guess the whole world should mourn for me.

okay i'm gonna write this.

Someone was a person,
who i thought i could trust.
he'd pick up at calls at 4am and his brain nvr rust.
no matter what happens,
fret not he'd find a solution and a logical way to save the day.
no matter what anyone says.

but one fine day,
this person decided to change.
a step once took never to return.
for the trust once gone will never come back.
to the person who actually was stupid enough to throw it out like that.
he's drifting further and further and further,
you dont even feel you know him anymore.
he'd have his reasons.
1001, elaborating on how valid his reason is but i dont care why.
cos irresponsibilty is not an option of choice.
he told me not to escape, that it wont solve problems.
so may i ask,
what is he doing now?
hiding in the corner avoiding reality?
By doing close to nothing not even bothering to ASK.
You said "I still thought i knew you."
Now i'll say it back in your face " I should be the one who thought i knew you".
i dont care what happened or what changed.
nothing's changing in my world yet,
and its not too late to come back.
but if the path you choose is too tempting to resist,
i've nth to say but goodbye.
keeping nth but memories of you--- the person who was once my friend.

its depressing typing this.
i dont know hw things turned out this way.
its all the fault of exams i guess.
or mayb friendships are so fragile they cant ever stand the test.
of a mere 3wks.
ha ha ha.
what a joke.
you're lousy.
to think i actually really believed in you besides wht others said.
i listened to wht you have to say.
despite wht the others think.
yet this is wht you show me,
tht you dont care.
you're just selfish. LOSER.
you hear me?
A SELFISH LOSER.

screw out of my life unless you're willing to change.
i dont need ppl like you to be a friend, wht you have done will NEVER be something a friend to will do to another.

you may think i'm whining and bullshitting but i dont care,
i want to SPEAK my mind.
take it or leave it,
this is wht i think.


i need chocolates& a movie to calm myself down.
okay i have them.
i'm gonna watch forbidden forest.
it sucks thinking abt things tht are alr hopeless.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

gosh,
the song on my blog is FREAKIN' CUTE.
sounds like the chipmunks man! haha.
but the non remix is damn sweet.
i'm OBSSESSED with it.
its the song i said i'd upload.
"its crazy how the pain seems to overflow"
haha.
i'm crazyyyy.

chinese is horrible,
why do we have to have it EVERYDAY for 3HOURS. TT

Mum got 3 free tix to singapore flyer. haha. ((:
i am gonna go ride it. whoooooo!
we flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

okay i admit i'm damn high now,
ha ha ha!

we SANG during band.
whoo~
Melodies of life- FinalFantasyIX.
"Alone for a while i've been searching thru the dark~"
i'm playing it though.

cannot wait for camp& concert! ((:

tml's chem!& NOT PHY. YES! ((:

-give me back the trust i left in you.-
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

I feel like dedicating this too all sec4s.



so...

This is a dedication to all sec4s! ((:



Exams are a bother,

life is hell but i wish i didnt even bother.

i couldnt sleep, i couldnt shit cos of all the distress.

now its over yet debriefs come,

where you stare fear in the eye and wonder how to break the news to your mum.

Results are out,

good& bad it all flows together.

Theres nth we can do but we cant be under the weather!

smile more and be happy but work harder.

i will all be worth while later.



therefore,

its alright if you didnt do really well,

the paper's hard i agree.

but if its your best you have done,

praise yourself for the moral courage and effort.

at least you bothered to study the night before & didnt attempt to cheat.

dont keep being so sad,

life's gonna suck like that.

what your parents say dont matter,

its what YOU think YOU are,

not them.

no matter what,

prelim's the nxt goal.

all o lvl peeps,

reflect, look forward and move along!

Dont dwell on the past yea!

like what angeline says,

"Results dont determine how far you go"

haha! ((:



i have been enlightened somehow.

& yea, i cant really comfort people,

but this is wht i can say with my capacity.



jiayous all okay! ((:



i want a WATERbed, someone buy me one for my birthday!

&& walls need to talk more. :DDD





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i feel like uploadg pics,

bear with me haha.

xDD


















Darling, you're LOVED.















Darling, you're always LOVED.



-why couldnt you just take the next step?
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

exams are overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.!
ppft but i feel so. i dont know wht la.

i am the laggest of the laggest person in the world la.
i am actually watching KO ONE. omg.
.___________________________.

i rly got no mood to get my results nxt wk.
i'm really sure my mye aint gng to be good.
what am i gonna do?!! ahhhhh!
help me man.
i'm scared, real scared.
my tear glands are getting...

therefore, i'm getting myself distracted by playing games.
andand, i'm just have HAD ENOUGH OF CABAL.
Pkers are losers,
you hear me?!
you pk ppl of same lvl nvm,
WHY THE FUCK must you bully NOOBS.
ppl of like lvls 30+ 40+ lower than you?
you find it HONOURABLE?
YOU FIND IT FUN? i tell you,
you ppl are jus cowards.
LOSERS WHO CANT PICK ON PPL OF THEIR OWN LVL.
HUMJI LA.
GO HOME AND FIND YOUR MAMA LA.
we ppl are noobs you not happy ah?

fine, i'll be civilised.
i wont say a word to ppl like you.

whatever, i'm indulging in my world now. ((:

today went to pp w/ band peeps! (((: i love band peeps. whoo.
kept laughing at kfc man.
we are like crazyyyy.
&& on the way back i slept on the bus,
i took 154, it didnt turn in.
i was like so stunned.
i tot i took 135.
dhen ltr i got down immediately.
luckily i saw jacie.
or i'll be dead.
lost my way.
sucks and i said i wouldnt SLEEP ON THE BUS AGAIN.
damn it. ><

lols okay sorry for such a sucky post. heh.

I HATE PHYSICS. ((:

& i'm just so sick of love songs, so sick of not getting wht i want.

DAR CHOCOLATES ARE LOVE I TELL YOU.
DIE DIE MUST TRY,
DONT TRY REGRET! (((:
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

jhdiostjegjegjgjgjgjgjrhdsnmdkjhsiufhio!
^%^&%$^&!%$!%$^&!#$^%*&^*(!@!!

TO HELL WITH EXAMS.
i have endure the "livery of exams" for like 1 wk and 2 days alr.
and mye officially ends this coming thurs.
i'm left with egeog, amaths paper2, phy paper1&2 & bio paper 1&2.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT!

i'm going crazyyyyyyy alrrrrrrrr.
i spent my days memorising stuff, and stuff and mre stuff.
my brain is saturated with explanations, equations& info and info and info.

my beloved sister has alr finished her exams this week. wtf right!
so unfairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT!

i dont know how the hell am i going to survive my physics paper. T_T
i guess i'll either fail or JUST PASS.
physics suck, i dont like it. FULLSTOP.
thats the definition of physics.
a sucky subject. TO HELL WITH IT.
RACHEL TAN YUE YIN DOESNT LIKE PHYSICS,
SO PLEASE THROW IT OUTTA THE WINDOW!

okay exms sucks. byebye.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Rachel.Tan.Y

Born on 271092, previously in CCPS(5Hum&6Hum), is currently slogging her intestines out at chung cheng high school main, strongly in LOVE with 4respect08. She is in the concert band, she adores trumpet section& band comm07-08. She wants to grow up faster, random at times. She loves chocolates, but she just hankers after bitter ones. Dont try to steal 'em from her, she'll go catankerous. She wants her Olvls to end fast with A1s so she can have fun fun fun& more fun. She wants a bike when she grows up& not a car. She badly craves for a new phone& more skating sessions right now.! She games a bit from time to time& watches anime! Sunsets, Sunrises& Sunflowers are her love! Not forgetting my HAWT BLACK RABBIT. ;DD
On the whole, if you'd just love her, she'd love you too. Y

Most importantly,
SEXY TRUMPET SECTION ROCKS!


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