jiay0ux jiay0ux !!

gosh i dunno wad tu say ~ =X

hehex .

sittg at the back is fun ~

lalalalalalalalalalalas ~

my desk partner is so funyy . lalalalalala ~

she rocks the whole world down . lalalalalalalalalala ~


if i could escap and re-create a place as my own world . ~ whee whoo ~


i m mad ~ i m MAD ~ i learnt tu zi high ! ~

renee ps me today ~ on the bus suddenly ps me ~ ARGH ~ ended up havg tu call kor ~
RAWRS .
she gave me a new name too . rachel TEN PIG PIGS !! :@ wthwthwth !!

siandia0ed ,
update : exam is on THURSDAY and i lyk haven rly did ss .
wootx ~ whee whoo ~

okay i m a CRAPPG IDIOT !

BUHHHBYES ~
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i came here tu sayy .

I GIVE UP on SS !

i read n read n read osho cant go in . HELP !

forget it . shall do maths dhen e geog . ss leave for mon . =X

pray monday no assembly . ((:


-stupid cbox screwed my outlook of e blog ! =XX -
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

hihiX all .

suddenly dunno wad tu say when my mind was full of stuff b4 i came tu blogger .

gosh i rmb !

firxly GOOD news : maths test 20/20
2ndly BAD news : i'm slackg and nxt wk exam le

personal update , exam is less dhan a week away ! wootx n i m SLACKG .

haishh . wells . i dunno wad tu do or say .


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i somehow realised i m startf tu see things below the surface . i din realise what a person really is when yu get tu noe each other . after observing i felt that she was really very nice and wells playful but logical and rly nice tu me . the dist btwn us gets closer evryday .

itx true , evryone has a soft side . yu treat a person nicely , yu get treated nicely as well . i feel happy dng this . i dunno why . i have been OH SO badly mistaken as a HOMO for this but i rly feel itx okayy tu be jus gd frens ?!

i feel intrigued by ppl . i wna noe dhem i dunno why i jus want tu . i wna c their soft side , wad they are like when dhey r slpg , wad r their habits and wad they behave like at home , wads runng thru in their minds . i rly feel so curious abt these .

i m takg a step closer tu this but wells . it needs tu go on .

i m crappg , IGNORE ME ~
but sadly i m gna crap more . =X

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i dunno why i cant find da feelg tu my grp of frens . now i have a gd r/s with almost evryone but theres jus no one close tu me i can rely on . no close and gd fren . i dunno wad tu do when i m alone or sad or emoing . evryone will run back tu dheir circle of frens when i ask for help . i dunno why . when i jus start tu think i was actually close tu dhem , it jus shatters lyk a glass that hit a floor that is no harder dhan diamond . Trustg , it aint ez now .

i tot i was livg in a facade when i was sec 1 and 2 but in upper sec , who knows the facade jus gets so bad until it turns nasty . yu dunno wad bhind dat nice mask ppl show yu .

i feel lyk a wall is now rly built ard me . its cuttg me away frm e world and jus cant break it and bring all of y frens tu my side .

i m indulging in romance novels tu forget all of this . mayb i m pmsing but wells dats rly wad i feel . story bks r e only place i can let myself rly be free .

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i m sick and i m made tu eat sickly drug like medicines that are lyk tranquilisers puttg me into slp . hurhurx !

HELP !

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exams exams . i can only JIAY0uX !


mugmugmug RACHEL !


hhahas wells i gtg . buhhhbyes bloggie . ((:
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I MISS BLOGGING .

over the past few weeks or smth , dun ask me if i m accurate , i hav totally lost track of time . I dun care if anyone reads this blog anymore cos i feel dat using it for personal self reflection of my life in tyms when itx screwed up or when i m under ecentric madness is all i wna do with it . i hav long admitted i m a narcisisstic freak that is obssessed with herself . ((:

oh ya band gortd a silver . cheesy feelg i gortd when e results were out . LOLS .

EXAMS have started . i feel lyk screwing it all up . english well , it was jus average but the comprehension was bad . this aint the end of today okayy . chem test after exam was EVEN MORE SCREWED . TO HELL WITH IT ! i checked e paper by the bottom and therefore din notice dere was another page bhind . F.U.C.K. ! i cried lorhx . dunno for wad . tears jus came outta my eyes . it was DAMN embarrassing lucky i concealed my embarrassing state . almost got slobbery with shi qi . wanted tu cry , she cheered me up bahx . wells SHE HIT MY BUTT in PUBLIC . EMBARRASSMENT man . i dunno wad came over me but i went DAMN bhb and i said if she hit me countless no. of guys would get her for revenge . LOLS . i hate myself for dat sentence . i jus do . hahas . god i feel lyk a damn bitch hahas .

tml's chinese and LANGUAGES are OUTTA my life . but sadly i was readg an ENG story bk jus now . i ought tu go condemn myself man ! LOLS . haven touched chi . i m rushg thru evryth now .

all i can say is rachel JIAYOUX . <333


-i feel disgusted by men's natural instinct in lust for sex . i seriously do .-

gtg lurhx buhhhbyes !
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gosh !

FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN TRULY SUCKS !

#1 my sis is hogging my com and i dun dare tu ask her back for it cos she would gif dat damned ass reluctant face . gotta admit , her com is LAGGY even thou itx a pentium 3 , n mines a pentium 4 . zzz . =.=

#2 gave up with the com tried tu do some tuition hwk on AMATHS . i FAILED HORRIBLY man . gosh , i cant rmb PAST TOPICS . NOT EVEN REMAINDER FACTOR THEOREM . not tu mention quadratic curves n stuff .

wells i fell aslp halfway thru e work . althou i got physics hwk too , i wasnt e least bit of interested . lets put it this way , itx a FAR CRY frm wantg tu even touch it .

#3 i went tu read my bks , frm e library and god yu noe . itx a damn bloody freakg sad book . WHY THE HECK did i even choose dat book . with ppl leavg the WORLD and stuff . zzz . ironically , i finished it with slight emo-ness . =.=lll

#4 now i m back tu my maths hoping i would rmb but i totally have NO IDEA ABT IT . gosh . i feel so tired as if i have been lazing ard for a whole day , stretched out on e couch . DYING FRM FATIGUE .

#5 band has SPOILED MY WHOLE MORNING , i couldnt play properly , my teeth hurt . seriously yu all dun think itx a big deal or wad but it hurts as if itx being pushed in by a very strong force . i have 4 ulcers at the 4 corners of my mouth . it hurts lyk shyt and my lips bled on e inside . i din want tu touch my instrument . knowing that if i played , on e syf day i most probably wouldn't even be dere due to my teeth being knocked out and my most tearing itself apart . i feel lyk hanging myself frm e ceiling now . >.<

someone also screwed my day , i aint gna say hu but this had made me bloody pissed off . mayb i wun even wna TALK tu e person ANYMORE . dat dumb ass moron who is nth but a show off . ppl how totally NO consideration abt other ppl's feelgs . yu think yu're right ?

lemme tell yu sweetie ,
yu aint e world , yu dun control ppl , yu dun have the RIGHT tu tell ppl wad tu do or criticise wad we do . so why duncha jus stick yur head back tu yur own responsibilities and leave others alone . if yu wna show off go tu a stage here aint e place fur ya tu "perform" . make ur self SCARCE drama-freak .

i feel lyk i have been on drugs , ecstacy or smth , i cant think str . dunno wads wrong wid me . i felt giddy last night too .

i m gna shift my ass frm e chair and go bathe . hopefully life gets better .

FRIDAY the THIRTEEN SUCKS BIG TYM ~ .

-whr were yu when i needed yu ~ -

-bad state , bad attitude -
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

This blog seems dead but i cant be bothered abt publicity .

i found da urge tu blog cos cramming is drivg me MAD .

i gortd maths test and chi test tml , we all noe last min cramming doesnt wrk , YET i m dng it . ((: i jus gotta be SO DEAD .

i realised i m gettg more and more and MORE obsessed widd cam whoring and i m startg tu become smth i HATE man !

a NARCISSISTIC freak ! DD:

i m in love widd myself ? gosh mayb i'll become a les man ! zZz .

small exclamation thou : I LOVE MY HAIR !

god i m weird and i dunno wads wrong widd myself !

i've also found out , readg romance novels INCREASE my SELF ESTEEM .

RACHEL HAS GONE MAD . zZz . =XX

awww wells . cut e madness by now .

today's corny and ernest de BIRTHDAY ! ((:

i gave her the secret present and she doesnt noe ! OMG isnt it obvious ?! and she tot cheryl's "secret admirer " letter is by ME . CORNY HOW COULD YU .

wells went for sect today tuu . it sucks . i feel bad man . i m gng tu da extent that i m askg ard if they would blame me if i screwed up for e high notes . rly BIG thanks tu sheldon and alan for seriously givg me nice advice and i totally go soft at whad dhey said MELTY ME ! LOLS ~


i found out one more thing , I OH SO LURVEE CHERYL . she's e BEST person in my life . ((:



wells i m findg out new things evryday in my life . ((:



wells BAC TU LAST MIN CRAMMG . JIAYOUX rachel !


-the burng desire-
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wahahahas ~ i m SO into bks lurhhx ! gosh wads wrong widd me !

dardar cheryl today din come . sobx . i FEEL DEPRIVED of love ! ytd sent her tu sick bay . seriously speakg , i'm not les or wad but seeing her in pain hurts man . =XX

lols today band ended late and i m SO PISSED wid myself for NOT playg high notes properly ! GAHHHS !

gotta WHOLE stack of hwk but i wna read bks !! omigod . i'm MAD .

oh ya e blue form came back widd my progress report . IT SUCKS I FAILED 3 TESTS !

rachel's dying . someone HLP ME ! ))):

syf's coming JIAYOUX ALL ! ((:
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i m BLOGGING .

omigod ! i gortd so much hw and i was actually slacking . i'm now stuck and strugglingg widd my chem cos i dun wna take my periodic table out . zzz .

i was readg my bk . mum dropped me off at e library a couple of days ago and now i kip readg lyk im addicted tu e bks man !

i jus finished his bk called LOVE RULES . OMIGOSH ! it ROCKS can ! ((: e endg so OH SO ROMANTIC . the sunset dream i always wanted was the endg ! I GOT EMO AFTER i read da end ! my heart is gng MELTY MELTY melt !

omg even my lang is gettg influenced i m speakg lyk e books now . zzz .

after i finished readg , poor emo me came up with this ((X :

a small small city in a big big world ,
a small small house in a big big world .
a small small room in a big big world ,
but a BIG BIG heart in a big big world . ((:



btw CO got a GOLD . wootx ! ((: gratx guyx !
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Rachel.Tan.Y

Born on 271092, previously in CCPS(5Hum&6Hum), is currently slogging her intestines out at chung cheng high school main, strongly in LOVE with 4respect08. She is in the concert band, she adores trumpet section& band comm07-08. She wants to grow up faster, random at times. She loves chocolates, but she just hankers after bitter ones. Dont try to steal 'em from her, she'll go catankerous. She wants her Olvls to end fast with A1s so she can have fun fun fun& more fun. She wants a bike when she grows up& not a car. She badly craves for a new phone& more skating sessions right now.! She games a bit from time to time& watches anime! Sunsets, Sunrises& Sunflowers are her love! Not forgetting my HAWT BLACK RABBIT. ;DD
On the whole, if you'd just love her, she'd love you too. Y

Most importantly,
SEXY TRUMPET SECTION ROCKS!


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