bad day today .

lost my physics test paper .
i'm hopeless , i cried cos of dat .
but seriously ,
i took pains to finish that paper.
Losing it hurts like dunno wad la .

During chem , i dun understand anyth .
i missed hol lesson for the sake of Smp and now SMP is screwed and my chem i screwed even worse . wtf ? lucky dear linli , shumei and shi qi are willing to help me . i love yu all okayys ^^

words can really hurt people so well ,
i feel that people shuld rly learn how to control their tongue some times .
They dont know what they are sayg rly hurts alot .
words can eaily cut and pierce through the fragile parts of our hearts .

things look bad with one look , my life has always been bad anyway .
band is cool ~ we have our ARICS now ,
hope i dun screw my studies due to band .

i dun care , i will prove to yu i'm not weak and i wun cry in frnt of yu ! -
books cannt be judged by the cover .-
-kiss my bruised&battered heart .
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

woa ~ back frm indi .

so much hwk left . holiday ones i mean .

today i chiong during lessons lo . i'm pathetic and tml got amaths test . kns ?

tonight dunnid slp again .

i chiong chinese in band and managed to finish b4 5pm .

now i needa chiong physics test paper + the emaths tys . >.< dead la .

ytd i did this new pic ! hahas . dhen i changed e bg cos itx abit confusing to me . >.<


hmm evry says i m zi lian .

wahahas , i noe that myself dearies . ^^

wells bad habits die hard ? T.T


haish . hope i can mug mug mugggg hard this term but yet now i feel i cant >.<


chi o lvl oral on 12/7 .

DIE-ED
&
DEAD .


i jus cant let go of yu .
VAMPIRE KNiGHT + BLEACH . Y
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

HIHI ALL ! ((:

i'm overjoyed >.< today sch reopen da firx day lurhx !





we changed physics cher to miss munirah . whoo ~


wonder if physics would be better for me .


i'm worryg abt the o lvl chi . haish . sobs la . sian .





i got one more day of redemption to finish my hol hwk ><





YET ,


dear miss RACHEL is blogging !





i m like die le ?





today was overall a happy day for me ^^


&& it was a happy monday for the firx tym . LOLS ~





okay laa ~


i shall go do my hwk ~ ^^







zero , kiss yukki !! kiss kiss kiss !! Y


-VAMPIRE KNIGHT + BLEACH FOREVER ! MUACKS ! Y -






what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

back frm msia lurhhx ! ^^

firx thing the place is SO COLD and SO COOL ! ((:

the mist is like so niceeee ~ yu cant see into e fog like wad yu see in movies etc . itx SO COOL ! ((:

we played at the themepark in e mist ! ^^

took alot of pics .
NOT zilian one ! hahas ^^

wells , it was fun ! the rides rock ~ ^^

this yr we took , corkscrew , spaceshot! , super tobogan , flying coaster! , viking ship and the swinging chair in e air thingy . LOLS !

i got this very weird feelg when i came back to sg , mayb i dun wna return bahx . >.<

on my way back frm genting on e car , on e HILL slope . there were like motorcyclists . a whoel grp ard 10+ of them RACING down e hill . itx like SO STEEP and they are RACING! i was like OMG . ITX SO COOL ~ all got pillion derx . itx dangerous la but i find it bloody cool ! i wna learn to do that too . they are like EXPERTS ?!
(i hav always preferred motorcycles to cars . ^^)

hehex . i'm bored now so i shall jus log off .

buhhbyes ^^

-so sorry to hav left yu all alone in the darkness . -
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

random pics recently taken . ^^
includg e ones at my attachment .



ME . or ME & my SIS :








happi happi ~









learning maple f3 ! hahas ! >.<









me and dearest ROchelle ! ^^









i jus dunno when to stop lookg AS IF i m very cute ^^ .









SHHH ~ keep quiet ! ((:



SMP attachment :







NUS de view outside central library . ^^





colourful caterpillar ! ^^





nvr endg corridor . CENTRAL LIBRARY .




Kevin and Yong Yi LOLS ~


my work desk ! ^^


k la i'm gng away to m'sia tml .

buhhhbyes guys ! dun miss me ~ ^^
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

today is sian sian sian .




O LVL chi oral is so near .

i dunno wad to do .

SMP is sian like mad .

i m BORED .


haish wadever .


-i wish yu were here by my side . -
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

i m BORED .

even bleach doesnt satisfy me now .

i dun even have the mood to do more hwk !

GAHHS .

attachment is gettg sianer and sianer .

and last of all ,

i m gna DIE OF SIANZATION .

the rm is so cold now i keep gettg typo . >.<

this morng , yongyi was clippg the visitor tag on his sleeve and i tot he din remove the price tag of his shirt .

OMG . i m a DAMN MORON ! >.<

lunch i had TEMPURA MIXED SET , itx like SO NICE , $3.90 only .

went to central library , DAT PLACE IS BIG ! ^^
so many THICK THICK THICK books sia ! >.<

hmmm , tml we're gng to the sci canteen for lunch ^^ .

k la i gtg lurhx . i haven done hwk and i m SLACKG off .

i took pics today too , upload all of e pics i took when i free . ^^

-korkor dun sad kays , shift hse only . wun die one . ^^ meimei here to support yu ! -

100000000000000000000000000008 <3s>
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Monday, June 11, 2007Y

once again ~ i cant believe i m blogging the 2nd tym .

wahahahs ~ i m a BLOG SPAMMER .

lunch was okay jus now . food was kinda nice . ^^

now i BORED to tears . findg codes kill my body and mind . i m like so sick of dhem le .

my eyes are tired cos of starg at the com for too long .

i'm freakg TIRED now .

the 2 students bhind me are like workg nonstop le .

THEY DUN FEEL TIRED ONE !

lols .

finally i understand how it feels like to work , i pity my dad and mum now . hahas .

i shall bring my ear piece to the place so i can even watch youtube etc ^^ .

yongyi is tired le and BORED . he actually asked me to play sudoku with him . LOLS . kevin is enjoying and none of us are workg , LOLS !

we are SLACKERS .

i dunno wad is this , gd or bad .

but i wna enjoy these 2 wks . ((:

i finished eng here . hahas ! ((: i realised i left out the make 5 sentences one , hahas !

ELEARNING is COMPLETE . except maths ^^ .

-yu told me , i accept it , fair enough . -

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Y

hahas ! ((:

ATTACHMENT OFFICIALLY STARTS TODAY ! ^^

now i m typg at my "work place" .

i'm enjoyg the AIRCON ^^ .

i'm in an office building now .

SO COOL man ~

the ppl here are like so professional . ((:

we were given a room , "work place" .

we were given pins to enter the building and we can use the pantry and etc .

this place has PS3 , Nitendo etc in the relaxation rm ! ppl are like playing ? that rm is SO COOL ~ hahas ~ ^^

theres a SUPER nice view at the roof top too !! >.<karoke and bar for happy hour and a GYM ~ omg laa .

jus now when i went off for lunch , there was a SQUIRREL . A REAL ONE . IT WAS BLOODY CUTE , i wna take a pic of it but it went off . GAHHS ! >.<

today's gna last till 6pm as well as any other day for 2 wks . hurhurX . ='((

wells i'll bear with it .

now itx still SLACK SLACK but the wrks gna come in when Mr Kevin has finished installg visual studios on his com . LOLS .

SMP is cool ~ ((:

-i miss yu like mad ; can yu not make me go mad over yu ? -

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Sunday, June 10, 2007Y

omg . my body is in PAIN ! >.<

itx UNEXPLAINABLE .

went to this fashion EARLY in e morning .

i eanted jeans only .

my mum bought SO much more . >.< sian laa .

dhen normal sunday stuffs , eat , visit grand dad n buy groceries .

i wna play GE .

i dun feel like slpg tonight but i'm bloody tired .

lortsa hwk left . i'm dowan tu do ! >.<

i wna talk on e fone tonight ! >.<

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Y

today is SATURDAY .

i had tuition frm like 11am to 6pm .

OMG i feel like faintg le .

esp when i din slp a wink last nite . >.<

dhen i went to watch SHREK 3 !! ((: i jus came back !

my sis learned frm me and CAM WHORED yu noe ?! she whored with me ! LOLS . ((:

here are the RESULTS !! ^^




we arent talkg !! >.<



superstars ? .__.



what are yu thinkg abt ?! x_X



random . lalaa ~



CUTE ! ^.~V



STATUE OF LIBERTY ~



TADAA ~ sisters FOREVER ~



hahas ~ SAME POSE ~ she's like soooo cute . ^.~V i so ugly >.<

hahas . enough le i go ORH ORH ~

GRANADO ESPADA ROCKS ~ ^^


-i rly meant wad i said why doncha believe me . -

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Friday, June 08, 2007Y

WARNING this post is EMO .

I’m tired of puttg this smile on .

I’m screwing up my life now .

I hav no mood to do any hwk .

I dun wna go sch

I dun wna go out .

I dun wna go ANYWHR .

I feel so damn emo now .

Nth helps .

Playg GE doesn’t , audition doesn’t , friends don’t .

I dno wad else I can do .

I’m moody .

The same phrase frm frens again .

Go out and get some sunshine laa .

When no one even wants tu go ?

I hate the whole world now .

The whole world hates me .

End of this mth is o lvl Chinese oral .

I cant rmb anyth I cant say anyth .

I’m fckg useless .

I’m flunkg evryth okay . EVRYTH .

Nxt wk dere’s full wk attachment at I2R .

I dun even like programming , spending 10 days dere frm morning to evening ? yu’re killg me .
I have not enough time .

Not enough .

I cant complete everyth .

I feel so alone , I feel no one cares . NO ONE .

*

waitg for yu for a few hrs is like eternity to me .

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
-Nickelback ; FarAway-

Ya . yu’re right . so right , I miss yu .

*

Someone pls hear my cries and hlp me .

yu'll nvr forgive me . never .

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Thursday, June 07, 2007Y

i'm damn pissed with myself today .
i'm tryg to vent my frustrations on paper . >.<
wells i feel like it so i'm uploadg some cam whore stuff i did over this yr .

RACHELS ;




BABY rachel . ((:



PILOT RACHEL rdy for TAKEOFF ! ((:



SHOT ; DEAD . ((:



tio bully , i'm CRYG . ='(



me dng HWK , or more like SLPG . >.<









ACBC me . i noe . LOLS . i'm not even cute >.<











HAPPY me ! ^^V









CRANKY me ! why do i like no. 7 ?!









another HAPPY me ! ((:









EMO me . LOLS . do i look emo ?! added photoshop crap ! >.<


*


hwk stress .

FCk la .

i cant be bothered .

bye guys .

-I DUN WNA DO THIS ! -

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Y

i'm listening to Far Away by Nickelback now .

nice song . cooled me down from the initial dispute and conflict within myself earlier this morning .

i finally cooled my head and started on my homewrk . i hope it not too late .

My words are like shyt now . so ugly de !

i have tuition ltr . sian !! >.< chinese O LvL oral is on the last week of June and i m like slacking , WTF ?! [okay i promised my sis i wun curse so i'm gna say WAT THE FISH instead of F*** .]

@#()$&#@$*!&#$@*&#$ !!

i'm like doing my e learning for ss now ? i started on matrix but it TOTALLY DUN UNDERSTAND . omg la . dhen the e learning quiz i was like HUH ?! i din noe need do lehhs ! >.<
i'm hopeless .

i'm like pining on someone to ask me go out .

seriously , i'm BORED to TEARS at home .

ppl are either in sch or not free . GAHHS .

imagine linli and sq and shumei baking cookies now . i m like SO JEALOUS .

nvm . i'll be better dhan dhem cos i m so guai i do my hwk !! >.<

YINNYINNX jiay0ux !! ^^

*

watched Devil wears Prada jus now . yes yes , i'm suagu , i'm so lagg blah blah .

but i din noe sex could be the glue to holding relationships together ? i dun get it . wads the pt , yu love sex not the person . >.<>.< hahas .

i'm dead vain these days . i keep thinkg abt myself . why i'm not like others , why do i look so horrendous . i'm thinkg so much abt these . WADS WITH ME !! >.<

haish .

okay okay , no more digressing . back to SS ! >.< Conflicts in Sri Lanka .

JIAYOUX RACHEL ! :D

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Wednesday, June 06, 2007Y

serious mood swing problem now ~

wtf is wrong with me .

oh gosh i feel like i'm pmsing .

i dno wad tu say man ~

i feel . i feel .

i dno wad i m feelg .

mayb i noe , i feel empty . very .

days that pass are seemingly empty with no meaning .

something screwed up with my life too .

THE CASE .

when will yu jus leave dear me alone . i dun wna think abt this . i dun wna rmb this . why mus yu bring my life back into the past and i actually gotta put a fake smile in front of yu . WHY ~ i wan an ans . i feel so worthless that i have to actually crawl to others tellg them my problems hoping for a listening ear .

i cant find myself .

i dno where's the rachel who has been copg with evryth myself single handedly gone . i totally have no idea . i feel so lost . i hate myself for being able to do NOTHING ~

&& jus let the horrors of my past haunt me .

THIS JUS SUCKS ~

*

went to outram early in the morning today to buy my dearie rubber bands ~ wow . ALL the way to OUTRAM park for RUBBER bands that cost $1.60 in total . 2 packets . WTH ?

i asked my sis to play audi femme . i came back played with it as well . i bought the shirt i always wanted to buy and begged my dear cousin to lend me $1.20 acash and i paid them back for audi shoes . LOLS .

I LOVE MY OUTLOOK FOR NOW .

now i m tryg to earn money for my hair . i wan a MAKE OVER ~ hahas ! i wna turn myself into a chio bu at least in audition . in real life , i settle with my fate bahx . but in audi i must be pretty even with the restrains of not havg any acash with myself .

HOWEVER ,
if any kind soul would gif me ACASH for my birthday , i would thnk the person dearly ~

got love bound's no. today , chatted with her . she's a nice and cute gurl ^^ she lives SO NEAR ME . i'm actually indulging in audition frens . haish .

i actually called linli today to ask her to go out and i picked a SO WRONG DATE . thurs she sq are gng to sm's hse . OMG . i wna bang the wall for goodness sake , no one wants to go out with me . >.<

audition becomes another empty place for me now . mayb i'm jus sick of online ppl whom arent within my reach and i'm tired of havg to lie to meet new ppl . what kinda lvl am i sinkg down to man .

i'm startg to hate myself .

*

my sis is gna borrow GRANADO ESPADA'S DISC ON SAT ! WHEEEEE ~

i have a new game to play ^^ !

ha ha ha . mayb i'll pang seh audi by dhen .

my sis kips sayg the guy is nice . wonder wad she means worhx . =))

BGR is not allowed worhx . >.- hahas !

*

i'm tired of life and hwk .

NO HWK TALK STILL ~

gng off after my daily crappings .

buhhhhhhbyesssssssss ~

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Monday, June 04, 2007Y

i'm tryg to dl GRANADO ESPADA ~

but the thing is like so slow .

jus now when it reached 68% it stopped and now i mus REDL !

omggg .

I WNA PLAY ~ lemme play ~

tml got tuition i haven done the hwk .

i dun wna touch hwk .

NO MORE HWK TALK !

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y

Sunday, June 03, 2007Y

I WILL MISS THE SEC 4s !!

i so regret now , i din rly like them at all in the past . now after the camp i rly feel i will cry during pop . i really will miss dhem .

they tried their best all jus to help us .

i almost wanted to cry when waiteng gave me the chocolate . i was like thinkg , i will rly rly miss my RIC head forever man ! wengsiong oso .

thinkg back abt the ARIC days make me wna cry again . all the scoldgs we endured for our own good . the stuff we planned for pop , all the stuff we screwed up on . i jus din realise , our seniors were always there to hlp us .

i wasnt close to dhem at all but during the camp i tried to understand dhem . observe dhem , controlled my temper in frnt of dhem and evryth .

i jus dunno wad to say but i will definitely miss the sec 4s ALOT . i love yu guys !

we'll try our best . we wont letcha down guys ! we will JIAYOUX one ! ((:


*

i came back frm band camp lurhx .

when i came back , i bathed , slept ALL THE WAY till 9 ?! i slept frm 3 to 9 . SIX HOURS . omg larhx . dhen my parents din wake me ! >.< [btw i realised i lost TWO KG?! i reached my 100% lurhx ! yays ! ((: ]

i felt like a zombie man . but i loved the camp . i dunno how to describe things or put this feelg into words . frm the games to the food to the evaluation to the cleang up to the nightwalk to the election . itx more dhan wad i can describe .

i held my tears today .

wells . jus to let whoever isit noe , i'm given the RIC post . i got chocolate frm WAITENG ! ((: she's like so nice and farnie . i still rmb the night walk , it kinda screwed at the start due to finishing too early . i was all the while in the band rm so i din rly join in the fun but seeing the faces of the sec 1s and 2s being so happy . i was glad too . seriously , frm my heart i felt so happy . waiteng dhen told us our nightwalk was okay . whheeee ~

i miss the farnie times . eg . during nightwalk when the grps came back and the movie (The haunted school) was screened again , derrick was dhere and during the scary parts he shouted RANDOM stuffs like "PAPAYA!" , " TAUPOK!" omg la . i was gna laugh my pants off and i was the one tellg him and waiteng the scary parts . phyllis was kinda freaked out too . LOLS . it was like all so fun . ((:

the games was fun too ! the firx round was boring thou , that one i admit we failed badly . but still , the 2nd round was like so much much better . my station was the obstacle course one .

&&

WENGSIONG DRIPPED HIS SALIVA ON THE TABLE WITH THE FLOUR . LOLS ! it was DAMN GROSS .

however bad it was , all was fun . esp when dhey finished spinng , they were like blur . some sank dheir whole head into the bowl to get their chopsticks . omg la . i was laughg my head off . i felt bad but it was all rly fun and nth more .

wells . today's election kinda stunned me . i was a nominee for BM/DM , RIC head , LIBRARY head ?!! omg la . drillg was fun too but i couldnt command cos i lost my voice . cant talk too . we drilled the sec 2s and 1s for the last time b4 we broke camp . i was so happy at that pt all the tiredness was like gone but i couldnt say it cos i lost my voice after all the yellg . dear me . >.<

we also sang a BIRTHDAY song for JINHONG ! wheee ! happy 15th bday ! ((: Karyn and LingTing prepared a cake for him too ! ((: hehex . it was all so so so fun .

oh ya . ytd . me and casey were kinda freaked out after the night walk but we were sticky so wanted to bathe ! >.< so wells we went into the staff toilet and bathed together . OI ! dun get the wrong idea . we were like damn farnie . gng in and out of the cubicles . to put the shampoo and stuffs . LOLS . dhen it was freakg farnie ! ((:

i seriously miss the camp . i want to turn back the time . i loveee CCHMB inclusive of SEC4s !

like wad the phrase says,

we dno how to cherish things until we lose dhem .

i regret this but i cant do anyth abt it . however , i'm sure we'll all kip the sec4s in our hearts . ((:

*

now the fun's over and back to sch wrk now . a WHOLE stack still sits in frnt of me and O LVL chi oral is like end of the mth ?! JIAYOUX bahx .

back to mugging !

CCHMB , CAMP COMM and the SEC4s ROCK ! <33


our GAME STATION ! ((: ziyi drew that . hahas ! ((:

CASEY's piglet ! but it got dirty after nightwalk . adorable isnt it ?!

sec3s and YIXIANG after cleang up the nitewalk route . we look half dead dont we ? ((:

drillg road ?! tselin was testg my cam . LOLS . ((:

the choco WAITENG gave me ! i m so gna miss her ! >.<

what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y