Tuesday, February 26, 2008Y
time really
FLIES.Febuary ends in 2 days time. leap year. heh.
long time didnt post? or isit even long. idk.
okay recording has started, its tiring. T____T
&& tml's alr
BIOLOGY SPA.therefore common test starts the day after tml.
someone give me faith to do the exp FAST& properly tml.
&& plspls let me have a CLEAR MIND with my COMMON SENSE.
i'm like all jittery now.
no mood to revise for common test now.
my mind's filled with spa spa spa and spa.
i screwed up the first one rly badly so i definitely NEED to get this one alright.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
my heart feels like its jumping out.
all efforts to comfort me to calm down has gone to vain.
omgomgomg.
okok.
i cant calm down.
but i'll go ahead with maths.
RACHEL shall GO FOR IT!RACHEL will SLEEP EARLY tonight!baby throw your heart at me, i'd rip it apart& feed it to the dogs. HAH.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Tuesday, February 19, 2008Y
awww man.
i finally am back home with no homework
&& my eyes wont stick on the book. ROAR.
i'm fed up alr luh.
i want to have fun& play with com but then.
got the FUGGING common test next week.
its boring& it sucks.
where is the life. no fun no nothing.
"And now I'm sick inside
Yeah, it makes me wanna cry
I'm so sorry about last night
Yeah, It happened so fast
I wanted it to last
In the moment it felt so right
But now I'm sick inside"
yeah, i am SICK INSIDE. -.-
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Sunday, February 17, 2008Y
i'm still sad, depressed& dont know whats gna make me feel better.
the bad feeling wont go away.
i'm running from reality.
i have TONS of accumulated hwk.
i just dont want to touch them.
then i have a guilty conscience.
& then common test is nxt wk.
how soon is that?
anyway,
studies is not evryth but yea,
its my year for "o"s.
if i work,
i'm gonna reward myself after it.
now whatever i can do is think of after Os.
to pull thru whatever shit the day has thrown at me.
i'm tired i'm sick of studying alr.
its only FEB.
skating today wasnt very fruitful.
went down to play with sis& angela.
skating's still fun though.
i can just forget abt whatever problems i have and jus skate.
i wish i could skate slow and nice everywhere, everyday.
to school, back home, i wish i was a expert at it too.
haha.
today was bryan's bday too.
my cousin i mean.
this is the only happy thing:
I ATE SUSHI FROM SAKE.
but mum didnt allow sashimi. ROAR!
&& I HAD ICE CREAM CAKE FROM SWENSENS.
whooooo. i'm fat alr. HAHA.
ANDAND.
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:
i have a NEW IPOD SHUFFLE for FREE.
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
i'm freaking HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYY!
heh.
i'm grinning alr! ((:
6mths mre to my phone plan ending. hehe!
new phone in aug. HAHA! :DDD
i'm JEALOUS of people.
sweet sweet sweeeeeet relationships. LOLS.
&& for me,
my feelings feel like they are on a roller coaster ride.
very high&very low.
whatever.
back to chinese hwk.
RACHEL'S DEPRESSED&SICK&SAD&SHE WANTS SOMETHING THAT HELPS.!
one phrase works though: LIFE SUCKS. ;DD
i'm still drifting on the sea like a jellyfish as always, aimlessly, no target, no nothing.
she just wants the Os to be OVER& find a NEW LIFE of her OWN.
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
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damn this feeling.
i dont know what it is but its so........
I DONT KNOW.
JUST UNCOMFORTABLE!
cabalonline jus makes me DEPRESSED. SAD&DEPRESSED.
hate it la.
so restless today.
pissed till i'm sick alr.
cough is back. ARGH.
alright NO SAD feelings shall infiltrate my mind nw.
today or rather yesterday was SISUI's BIRTHDAY WHOOO! ((:
got ambushed.
cream smashed on me.
i kept screaming. T___T
lols.
i'm lousy. heh.
i'm sad i'm depressed i dont know what will make me feel better.-
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Monday, February 11, 2008Y
cny's OVER.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
no more
MAHJONG, GAMING, EATING SWEET STUFF.!!damn,
i didnt eat much goodies cos i got a sore throat& a cough.
damn it!
I WANT TO STUFF MYSELF WITH UNHEALTHY JUNK OKAY!URGH.my new clothes are like some emo kia also.
all black&white. eeek. lols.
but i loveeee my new shoes, watch&bag to
BITS! ((:tiny tiny BITS.!yay!
&&
i watched memoirs of a geisha ytd!
lols. kinda like the show.
i've been like some emo girl,
reflecting so much that i seem emo alr.
but yea.
true leh.
its a
SUPER cruel world out there whether you like it or not.
money, food, happiness go hand in hand? o.o
haha.
ok. 2 mre weeks to common test.
its so WTF-ish. -.-
i can have fun mugging. HAHA.
i have no mood thou.
only a
FESTIVE mood. ((:
ok i'm tired,
i want to
SLEEP.cya all.!
I WANT TO TRAVEL THE GLOBE! ((:
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
Monday, February 04, 2008Y
I've just realised this is the 201th post.
whoooo! haha.
happy anniversary blog. ((:
okay, yeayea.
alot of you kno.
got into hospital last wed.
had a stomachache on tues night.
i thought it was hunger pangs cos i felt hungry but didnt wna eat.
so yea went to slp.
4am.
got up,
couldnt take the pain,
went to wake mummy.
sucks,
ate some chinese medicine& went back to bed.
6am.
time to go to school.
i couldnt get up.
when i got to the toilet.
the pain was searing alr.
hurts like nobody's business man. T__T
so i ended up not going to school&back to bed instead.
9am.
wanted to go clinic.
got to the toilet again to brush my teeth.
the pain was so hard to take,
i grew giddy,
nauseous,
and i took a chair to quickly sit down.
vision started blacking out.
so yea, almost& NEARLY fainted.
lay on the bed writhing down there for my dad to come back to get me to the hospital cos i couldnt stand, let alone walk.
10am.
after pulling thru for 1 hour.
i managed to get to the car.
i could stand nw.
got myself to TTSH. (tantocksenghospital)
took the many checks,
glucose blood checks, temp checks, blood pressure checks, urine checks, pregnancy test o.O?.
gosh,
i was put on drip.
doctor said i was holding my breath cos the pain was too much.
so no oxygen went to my brain& i fainted.
had 3 bags of drips.
it still hurt.
lay there frm 11 to like 3.
got up for an xray.
came back& said.
intestines swollen.
i was alr wanting to swear alr.
the waiting time was horrible.
dhen she said i had to go to KK cos i wasnt 16 yet.
this was the most pissing part.
the entire hospital had 2 AMBULANCES?
one went to IMH and the other was i have no idea whr.
so yea frm 3 to 6 i waited.
bloody hell at 6 dhen the thing came back.
&& i was starving.
i had NOTHING to eat.
they said i had abdo pain so i wasnt allowed to eat.
sian la.
hungerpangs set in. it hurt even mre now.
finally got to KK at like 7.30?
doctor couldnt diagnose whats wrong again.
he pondered for like 1 hour plus walking in and out.
i waited at the A&E again.
dhen ltr say put me in the ward dhen see hw.
Z, if thats the case i wouldnt have to w8 in the first place.
dhen when i actually settled down,
i waited for the doctor.
waited for like 1 hr+ she's still not here.
PS: She looks like Ms Wee Jer Wen! ((:
ok. dhen finally when i asked if i could eat she told me can she asked nurse to get smth for me.
after what was like 1/2 an hour,
the nurse came in and said that they couldnt serve.
9pm.
dad finally came back with food he bought cos downstairs no food luh. ((:
i was in a baby ward with the babies.
omg they were SUPER cute! ((:
adorable but poorthing man.
on drips etc.
&& in the middle of the night it was the worst.
one cried after another. argh.
i woke at 2 hr intervals cos they cried.
6am.
cried again so i didnt slp alr. lols.
the nxt day was spent with homework& food&food& magazines. lols.
too lazy to say anymore.
THANKS FRIENDS WHO HAVE HELPED ME IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. ((:oh ya& PMS is NO GOOD. eg today someone's face was freaking bad. "doesnt she know her mood affects us?" -quoted frm lerling. sad man. T__T
ok, chem was screwed. mixed up exo and endo.!
then maths was like. WTF?
she asked me to take frm her locker and do.
record what time i start and end dhen put back in her locker.
OMG man,
she thinks i am some innocent saint ah. LOLS.
hopeless. ><
but yea she's nice today. hehe.!
ok no mre rubbish luh.
geog&chi await me tml.
SEE YA! ((:
what a crazed fashion of fantasy.Y
